.. and then when we parted company, he kissed me. just a peck, but it was on the lips. so, for someone so shy, i think i can take that as a sign he really is interested in more than the sweet friendship we already have going.

i have no appetite and mild insomnia.
this can mean only one thing, blogpeeps.
yes, i am crushing.

*freaking out freaking out freaking out*

it's been a while.
x

summer delights

late night adventures leave me over tired but smiling.
it was the most eerie night in new brighton. thick thick mist, and so very still. i've never before walked down the pier without getting windswept! standing at the end, staring out at a wall of solid air was very disconcerting. such a fitting end to a beautiful day.



and haiku for greg:

summer happiness!
the sun is setting pinkly
in woolston tonight

x

sunny saturday, no work for me
lyttelton for coffee and market
then home for lunch with sis
and my new nephew
shit, he's cute.

"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

so said michael leunig.

much relief in saying things aloud,
this note brought on by a conversation in which something that had never been spoken of, well.. was. and i didn't realise it'd be such a relief to have it said, it was never a big deal, but the smile that broke across my face unbidden must mean that at some level it had been bugging me!
i also told a friend that i love him, and that felt good too. even if he thinks i'm a weirdo. actually he knows that. i'm all about the honesty, blogpeeps.
honestly, i love that you're reading this.
*smooch*

bugger this, i'm off to hinewai.
:-)

finding joy in gardening, in catching up with old friends (three cheers for skype! even if the omani version is a bit shit), in planning waitangi day outings.
and tomorrow i get to meet my new nephew!

well i think i did a fairly good job of being diplomatic in my awkward meeting today. no tears, which is a good start. and hopefully changes will be made, and everyone will be smiling again.
i'm very happy to be finished work for the week! and happier still that there is lots of good stuff going on tomorrow. it's waitangi day, and i plan on checking out a latin american festival in the square, and perhaps a bit of good music at the art gallery too. fingers crossed this sweet weather holds!

it's all about the joy, baby!
seeking it out.
today's joy was a cupcake with karen (belated birthday cupcake), collecting seeds from my garden (sage, rocket, radish), eating one bright red cherry tomato, and listening to jens lekman turned up loud on the way home.
(in other news, i had a slightly unpleasant work meeting tonight, and now i have to have a rather awkward conversation with a workmate.)

no more haloscan.. all old comments lost!
the sentimental hoarder in me is smarting.
but pretty red and green lifts my spirits a little.

i have decided to seek out joy. i'll let you know how that works out for me! so far so good, i am feeling positive about this feeling positive thing.