my hands are wrecked.
there is nothing, NOTHING, ok about this. it is the most demoralising depressing thing. i can't do the simplest things, and it is driving me fucking crazy.
FUUUUUUUCK.
rant over.

ONLY LOVE CAN BREAK YOUR HEART

so said neil young


i am not heartbroken, but i am heartsore.
i made a decision today which feels like the right one, even if it's a bit shit. and sad. but you know, i'm all about the simplicity and happiness and i think i'm on the right road. i feel like making this decision is a step in the right direction, a step towards being the best person i can be. god that sounds awful, but that is cynical me talking, and didn't i say something about casting cynical eroica aside for a while?
this is all good learning. many a challenge, as if i could expect otherwise. life is a bitch! but a beautiful sweet bitch.
someone tell me to shut up?

x e

A NEW WEEK

last week was shit, for various reasons that i don't intend to divulge.
this week shall be a much better one! i am determined to make it so. it's off to a good start... a sunny morning, i don't have to be at work till lunch time, and i have tentative dinner plans with the darling gregstar this evening.
right, blogfolk, i'm off to read shanataram for a bit.
xx love

The Wiggles ~ You Make Me Feel Like Dancing

i don't care what you say, there is nothing wrong with this video!
in fact, on a shitty day, it's about the only thing to bring a smile
hehe.

blogpeeps, it's going very well.
<3

.. and then when we parted company, he kissed me. just a peck, but it was on the lips. so, for someone so shy, i think i can take that as a sign he really is interested in more than the sweet friendship we already have going.

i have no appetite and mild insomnia.
this can mean only one thing, blogpeeps.
yes, i am crushing.

*freaking out freaking out freaking out*

it's been a while.
x

summer delights

late night adventures leave me over tired but smiling.
it was the most eerie night in new brighton. thick thick mist, and so very still. i've never before walked down the pier without getting windswept! standing at the end, staring out at a wall of solid air was very disconcerting. such a fitting end to a beautiful day.



and haiku for greg:

summer happiness!
the sun is setting pinkly
in woolston tonight

x

sunny saturday, no work for me
lyttelton for coffee and market
then home for lunch with sis
and my new nephew
shit, he's cute.

"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

so said michael leunig.