off to aucky to see mich... yay!

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thank you all for your comments and support on my last post. it really does mean a lot.
on saturday tracey and i decided to end our relationship. initially her idea, but when i got honest... my thoughts lately have been very much focussed on whether or not i was wanting to be there anymore.
there are many reasons for which we made our decision. i don't want to write about them yet, but i think i will soon. (and i don't mind you asking questions)
so, where are we at now? well, i'm not too sure. we are still in love (sometimes i think more so than ever) and still want each other emotionally/mentally/sexually.
we think we've made the right choice, but there is still a lot of confusion in both of our hearts over it.
we've settled on trying for a slow parting. no sudden wrench.
how does one fall out of love deliberately?
people, if you have any advice for me please do share it.

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tonight my girl went to councelling with her ex husband. which is a good thing. they've got shit to sort out, especially as we plan on leaving town in a few months. best to make a start at the healing before we go.
but do i feel good about it?
hell no.
i'm shitting myself. not because i think she wants him back, but because maybe she doesn't want me around while she gets her head/heart around that one. am i just a hinderance to her now that the initial sparkle seems to have diminished somewhat?
you know what? i'm bloody miserable at the moment, so there.
i'm *so* looking forward to my [however shortlived] escape to auckland.

iLLUSTRATiON FRiDAY ~UNDER THE SEA

pink fish green fish
swim fish
splash splish

*overtired*




"What did you do today?" I hear you ask.

Well, I sent a bucket of tahini to Mt. Lyford.
And I renamed Lisa's child. PoobyRoo she shall be from now forth.
And I came home and made dinner (mac cheese with no mac and no cheese as such).
And I booked a flight to go visit Michelle in Auckland for a few days in a few weeks, coz she makes me smile and I loves her. Lots.
And now I plan on putting on a load of washing and going to bed. Pottery tomorrow, first of this term.
*s*

ps. fb is back-ish