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tonight my girl went to councelling with her ex husband. which is a good thing. they've got shit to sort out, especially as we plan on leaving town in a few months. best to make a start at the healing before we go.
but do i feel good about it?
hell no.
i'm shitting myself. not because i think she wants him back, but because maybe she doesn't want me around while she gets her head/heart around that one. am i just a hinderance to her now that the initial sparkle seems to have diminished somewhat?
you know what? i'm bloody miserable at the moment, so there.
i'm *so* looking forward to my [however shortlived] escape to auckland.